There are a lot of things I don't like about my current state of affairs.
I'm 6 months post-graduation, I have no job, money acts like it doesn't even know me and will not stay in my pocket, I'm totally confused about my life's purpose, and I don't have an exceptionally good plan to speak of.
BUT (bright side alert), there are many MANY things about my current situation that I do like.
One of those is my freedom.
I know this period of life will soon be over, and with it will go my freedom to choose how I spend my time. Right now, there are no restrictions, no scheduling days off, no one dictating what I do with myself except for me.
It's quite glorious as you might imagine, and all that glory helps to remind me (in the really stressful times) to soak it up as best I can now.
The real world is coming, I know. It's all gonna be over but the crying soon enough.
One activity this "freedom" has allowed me to take part in on a very regular basis is babysitting the boys. When Ashley calls me to see if I can keep them, my answer 9.95 times out of 10 is a (very enthusiastic) yes.
I would never get to be with them as much as I am if I was a real grown-up with a real job.
Grown-ness and job-ness are my immediate goals of course, but I only have so much control over that right now. And I am beyond glad that I can be so involved with my little thanksgiving turkeys until it all comes together.
Because as recent studies have shown, Brannen and Will have both reached their peak levels of cuteness in the past year.


Today, for example, is one of those days where I get to put my worries to the side and revel in this period of life God has given me to figure myself out and spend some good time with those I love.
Today I get to hang out with 2 little men who keep me laughing and break my heart with their adorableness - all at 3-minute intervals.
The boys are out of school, so I am actually getting to hang out with them for the next two days. It's like Fall Break all over again, but I am even more thankful this time around because, well, it's Thanksgiving, and that's the law.
This morning we made a little trip to the donut store for a some breakfast and conversation.
Food and talking. My faves.
Brannen and Will. My other faves.

While we were sitting there, an ambulance drove by igniting Precious Conversation #45878457 with the boys.
"Look, ya'll, there's an ambulance driving by!" I said. I'm all about soliciting excitement at any cost.
"Yep. Some-body's goin to da doc-ta," Genius child Will informed me, very matter-of-factly.
"That's exactly right. I hope they are not very sick," I replied.
"And after the doc-ta, the amboo-lance is gonna take dem to a west-a-wahnt. (Confused look). Is dat wight, Jenn Jenn?"
Um, not quite, Bud.
"Well, no, I don't think ambulances go to restaurants very much. Actually, when an ambulance drives by really fast, it is probably taking someone to the hospital," I explained.
"Oh yeahhhhh. (light bulbs, light bulbs). And to get a SHOT," Will said, suddenly burdened with thoughts of needles. I hear ya, baby.
"Maybe so. Hey, ya'll know what?" I said, remembering something relevant to this story that I would like to share. "I had to get a SHOT yesterday!"
(It's all about the drama here at Jenna's Day Camp)
"Really???" Brannen asked, intrigued by the unexpected twist I had just thrown at them.
"Yes. But I was very brave, and I didn't even cry (or pass out, for anyone keeping score)," I told them both.
I immediately noticed a troubled looked on my child Will's face.
"Jenn Jenn. When I go to bed tonight, I'ms gonna pway for God to not let you get a shot ANY MO-WA!"
(Personal moment of heart breakage)
"Aww! Thank you so much, Babe. You are just the sweetest."
I then noticed Brannen looking over at his baby brother (precious little head shaking back and forth and mouth curling up into a grin).
"Will. You are totally breakin my heart right now."
Couldn't have said it better myself, Big B.
Couldn't have planned this time in my life any better than this, God.
Couldn't be much happier, ya'll.
